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worst intake ever..

didnt eat throughout school

@ around 3,

ate 5 chicken wings, 1/3 bag of noodles, 1/2 an icecream cone and veggies

didnt eat after that

I cant do it anymore. I’m so tired of being stuck in this hell hole. I feel alone more then ever and worst of all, how can you just tell me to go die and kill myself? You don’t know what the fuck I’ve been through and just to throw it all down on the line like that just because of one stupid fight makes you wish I was dead? I already have problems of my own. Not like I didn’t want to fucking be dead in the first place now i have someone who wishes I was dead. I’m tired of feeling worthless. I’m tired of being alive. Its hard to face everyone everyday and tell them I’m fine because I’m not. Its hard to lie to myself and others. I wish everyone could tell I was suicidal. Wanting so bad to fade away, to scared to kill myself. Whats the point anymore right? One trigger, a rope, a blade and it would all be over with. All the shame, the guilt, the feeling of meaning nothing to anyone, it would be gone in a second. What am I waiting for? Nothing is holding me back. I have nothing to look foward to anymore. You wished I was dead right? Now you made me wish it too.

May 15 18:02